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This is not where I would have
envisioned how my life would be.
This would not have been how
I would presume things would turn out.

Unhappy.

I thought things would be better,
& life would have been happier.
Found someone who loves me,

but..

This wasn’t where I thought I would be.
At times, I feel as though I was drowning
& there wasn’t anyone who would,

or who could save me.

xxwarbee

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You know that time where you wish you had a boyfriend and eventually you got one..

When you finally got one, you wish for some other else..

I have a confession to make.

I'm someone that never settle for one. 

Let me clear things up before any misunderstanding take place. 

I absolutely am not referring to boyfriend(s).

I'm talking about life, career, etc.

In fact so much that I don't feel like listing them.

So much that I'm not in the good mood for this past few weeks. 

Yes, weeks & not days. 

xxwarbee

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Was scrolling through Facebook. Read this,


"Five Wisdoms

1. If you are right then there is no need to get angry, and if you are wrong then you don't have any right to get angry. 
2. Patience with family is love. Patience with others is respect. Patience with self is confidence. 
3. Never think hard about the past. It may bring sorrow. Don't think more about the future. It may bring fears. Live this moment with a smile. Trust in Allah s.w.t.  
4. Every test in our lives makes us bitter or better. Every problem comes to make us or break us However, the choice is ours, whether we become victims or victorious. 
5. Search for a beautiful heart and not a beautiful face. Beautiful things are not always good, but good things are always beautiful. 

Love each other for the sake of Allah s.w.t. 

May Allah s.w.t. grant us the ability to be the best Muslims we can possibly be. 

In sha'Allah, 

Ameen."


Was interested with number 1 sentence,

"If you are right then there is no need to get angry, and if you are wrong then you don't have any right to get angry." 

I get angry easily. 
Anger is my biggest enemy.
Gotta change this.  
Anger management maybe?

xxwarbee

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You won't get sunshine 24/7. 

There's ups and downs in life. 

I guess this is the downs moments. 

Let's just hope this ends well.

*pats shoulder* 

In Sha Allah tomorrow's a new day. Now lets sleep. 

Goodnight world. 

courtesy of #ig

xxwarbee

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 Cause if I could, I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat.

#selfie #ig

xxwarbee

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xxwarbee

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Sometimes 
I prefer nothing but the truth.
Even if it hurts the hell out of you.
Because I think that everyone deserves that.
The truth.

Sometimes I feel that it is only because of hope I am holding on, that I am carrying through.
Hope for a future.
Hope for a future with happiness.
Hope for something better.
Hope for whatever.
I don’t know what this future holds for me & sometimes all I want is to just give up. Its so tiring, to hope for something that might never come true but its funny how time and time again I find myself hoping.

Hoping isn't enough I guess. It's time for me to let it go, set it free, stop hoping and carry on with anything that I'm doing right now.
I had enough, 
I am not going to wait anymore.
You understand nothing.


Go get a knife and stab the heart, and fell the pain. 

You can fake a smile, but not your feelings.

xxwarbee